| wow long time no see |
[01 Sep 2005|06:55pm] |
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wow it has been a long ass time since i wrote in this and I have no idea why. Ok. I started dating Daniel Gibson (i dont want to hear a fucking word) on july 5th and we are lovely... lol....but im currently bored sitting on daniels couch cause he insists on playing counterstrike and doesnt want to cuddle with me.... :(...but anyways hope turned 3 months and one week this past tuesday and she is 11ib. 6oz. .... she is so big lol... but anywys... still nothing to do and im just tryin to find reasons to type cause the keyboard sounds really cool.... i suck at life.... lol
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[08 Jun 2005|11:21pm] |
name:Hope McKaya-Jane Thompson
date of birth: May 31st
weight: 4 pounds 14ounces
height:18 1/2 inches
time of birth: 9:53pm
I LOVE HER TO DEATH..... SHE IS MY LITTLE ANGEL
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| well well well |
[28 May 2005|06:20pm] |
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ok how am I going to explain this to him. I dont even know how to start. I mean why is it that the most important things to you are the hardest to explain to others? I dont see how I am going to do this but it is really important to me and I hope that he understands that. Even if he doesnt want do I do kinda think that he at least owes me this. Its just going to be hard. People are supposed to come see me tommorow. Great. I kinda wish that he would offer to come see me but I KNOW that I am asking too much. I dont mean to ask too much I just really want to just kinda... I dont know... I dont even know how to put it into words. My dad is fixing the hallway light. And people do read my Livejournal. I feel LOVED! My dog is sleeping on the couch beside me. He is adorible. I meant to spell it like that. I am watching Dogma. Its actually funny. Even though a lot of it is wrong. Its still funny. Ok I shall write later.
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| stupid stuff |
[27 May 2005|10:05pm] |
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ok why is it that I have to get panic attacks along with all this other crap that is going on with my life?!?!... i think there is someone in another universe tryin to piss me off... I really still dont get what spooning is...lol... i have heard it in different terms... HAHA... my dad wants to take a shower in our shower cause we just re-did the bathroom... currently watching chris rock and he actually isnt that bad... I dont know why i even bother to get mad at things... they will go away eventually... my dog is lookin around the rooom for food.... he is spoiled... we have to keep reminding ourselves that its not good for him as we eat and he looks at us with this pathetic face... like he hasnt gotten food in three days... I was really upset yesterday but now I could care less... its not my problem until it comes up... I think the reaosn why I think about things that are so far into the future is because I dont want to not be prepared whenever it comes... I HATE it when things sneek up on me... I dont like to be surprised when I wont know how to deal with it... like when people die.... WHAT IS UP WITH THAT... they couldnt give us a warning first?!?!... ok i was being MAJORLY sarcastic there and didnt really mean it... I just feel like talking.... I had like 2 panic attacks today and I hate it cause I feel like people have to go out of their way when they have to help me out and stuff... my dad is the one that helped me today.... we have to go to a consult with np Bonecutter.... I think she thinks that there is something going on at the house that is bad... when there isnt... everything is fine now... but NO... people always gotta get up in our business when we dont need it... and all it does is make us annoyed. I surprisingly have been interested in my Livejournal for the past few days... and I really dont know why... but I mean I guess its cause these are the only people that I am going to have time to talk to for the next few years... HAHA... cause Im not gonna have time to talk to people whenever she is awake or anything and when ur on the computer then u dont have to worry about that... cause its not like we ALL have to be online at the SAME EXACT time anyways... so its all good... I actually figured out how to put more then one screen name on at the same time and I am soo proud!... my dog is like passing out across the blanket on the couch... My dad is supposed to go down to Blackville tommorow with Terry so that they can do some kind of stuff that I have no idea about... Maybe I can actually try to get some sleep tommorow... not like its gonna work.... my aunt was right... it is gods way of getting me ready for a baby being in the house... cause I sleep deep and I was scared that I wasnt going to wake up if she started crying... and I was WRONG... cause now whenever someone is in the house thats awake I wake up... I HAVENT SLEPT IN THE PAST 2 DAYS... I hate it... I do feel guilty for sleeping a lot though cause she must be bored as it is and now her mommy is sleeping too much... My sisters boyfriend got her 20 roses and surprised her after work with them... I hate her... lol I hate everyone who has a good guy... whats the point of them anyways... either way its never gonnna work out... unless u are of marrying age... and HIGH SCHOOL IS NOT MARRYING AGE... so what bother with it... omg Boogey man is a scary movie... haha jsut saw the commercial... I am ordered to go to bed at 11... yea right.. and get up at 8... Im up at that time anyways... and take 1/2 hour naps onlky... i go over that by an 1 hour and a 1/2... haha... and also I cant watch horror movies or read bad novels like that where people die... which I actually can agree with... cause I always feel like crap after watching Law and order SVU... or something like that... but I mean the movie SAW... ok that was NOT scary... Its just about some guy who has nothing better to do then to fix other peoples problems by tryin to make them kill themselves... and there is NO way to get out of it... like the chick... ok WHO WAS THAT HELPING?!?!... CAUSE IT WASNT THE GUY THAT SHE SLICED OPEN!... but hey apparently he was helping her and not that other guy... but it makes u wonder if she got prosecuted or not... I really dont know.... but yea I need to get more friends on this thing... cause I have NONE in real life... and I am ok with that... cause I dont want the crap that I did to be thrown in my face everyday... why do u think Im not going back to high school next year... I am homeschooling cause that (in my opinion and others) is better then goin to school... but anyways I am going to go before this thing gets too long... HAHA... not like anyone but me is reading it... o well... toodles
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[27 May 2005|07:47pm] |
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ok nothing much happened today... i do feel a little bit better... haha go figure.... i dont feel too good tho... panic attack.... my dog is so cute! and i have no life... o why do we live the way we live... ok im outy for now... toodles people...
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[26 May 2005|10:10pm] |
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maybe there is some way to fix this... and maybe i am just dreaming again... maybe i wont have to deal with this... and maybe im living in my wonder land.... i dont know what to think right now... i can find myself unless i get nswers from the people that OWE them to me... i dont know what to do... but i do know that i am not going to be effected by this.... my daughter doesnt deserve a mom like that... besides... im all she has...
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[26 May 2005|10:06pm] |
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ok what happened.... why did u do what u do... why do u like me sitting here for the past 8 months wondering what the hell I did wrong... why is it that u dont care... how can someone be that stupid!>... why is it that i was.... why the hell do i still care?!... its cause i never got any answers... never got a straight answer out of u... just stupid shit that covered up what u really did... and i HATE IT.... if i am SOOOOOO over u then why the hell cant i get u out of my head.... whats wrong with this picture.... i have to sit here and wonder about all of these things and there isnt a damn thing i can do about it because... i dont have to guts to call and ask... i dont see why u did what u did.... i dont want u back... I JUST WANT ANSWERS!... and i hate the way this is making me feel.... so tell me.... why wont u answer.... why dont u give me the real reason... i guess im not the only one who doesnt have the guts to do something about it... u can try to block it out all u want... she will always be in the back of ur head.... but no worries... im not tryin to get to u.... u wont even read this... so why do i care so much....
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[24 Apr 2005|06:42pm] |
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ok there wasnt much to do today but I mean we are watchin pimp my ride right now and its funny... my dad rhinks that these people are idiots for tryin to fix some of these pieces of junk... but anyways im bored so toodles...
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| today was boring |
[23 Apr 2005|07:20pm] |
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hey im bored.... there is nothing much to do today... my dog is laying on my lap... he likes my stomach cause its warm... go figure... i am soooo bored all the time... i am not sure if i am keeping her name hayden... i am in between hayden, hazel, and abigail... i dont know yet tho... tell what u think... but i really like the name hayden the only reason i am so stuck on it is cause i chose it a long time ago... ok toodles....
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[21 Apr 2005|11:29pm] |
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ok today we didsomething that was good for the whole family.... i tried to call nick but he didnt answer but i decided that even tho i dont think he cares i am still going to try to tell him wats going on even if it makes me feel like an idiot... but anyways... ok 100 grand bars are not supposed to be refrigerated... they have caramel so when you try to eat it its like rock hard..but anyways if u want to know what happened today then im me and i might tell u but other then that i am not tellin... i dont get why my dog gets more spaztic when my sis leavces or comes home then any other person... we have a cat two and they both look like little gremlins... but they are cute little gremlins... yes they are! yes they are! (understands how stupid that was and acts normal).. ok time to go... toodles...
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| I was bored.... |
[20 Apr 2005|09:13pm] |
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I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
Best to keep things in the shallow end
Cause I never quite learned how to swim
I just didn't want to know
Didn't want, didn't want,
Didn't want, didn't want
Close my eyes just to look at you
Taken by the seamless vision
I close my eyes,
Ignore the smoke,
Ignore the smoke
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you
Because I don't want to know
I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
I just didn't want
Mistook their nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a perfect color for your eyes
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you
I don't want to know
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[20 Apr 2005|08:41pm] |
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ok nothing much happened today... i officially hate my school... I really see no point in staying on bed rest because its not like i can anyways... when no one is home i cant just sit there!... and that happens a lot so there is no point to it although lately surprisingly my dad has been tryin to make me lay down more and stuff... in 2 weeks i have to go back to the ultrasound place and if my amniotic fluid is too low then they will have to take her soon... like right after... grrr... but oh well we will just have to get the house ready a little sooner.... my mom is painting my room right now.... and yes i would do it on my own but they said that i cant be around paint fumes... i painted the trim but i painted it too dark.... so my mom is all mad about that now but i mean its going to be ok she is just in a bad mood.... she has been all day long... o great the worst has come... lol.... not.... i am going to do the dishes for my mom since she has been doing a lot lately... but anyways there is nothing much else to say and i have to do that and then go lay down so talk later... toodles... :-)
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| ok today stunk..... |
[19 Apr 2005|07:47pm] |
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I went to the first doctors appointment this morning and they said that my hypothyroidism is fnie and they is nothing that they need to do to it... but then this afternoon when they were doing the ultrasound on me they found out that my amniotic fluid is low so I have to go to the doctor within the next two days so they can do an exam on me and then they can find out if I am leaking or if it is just low amniotic fluid but starting at 32 weeks that are going to make me get an ultrasound every week to see how the amniotic fluid is and if it gets any lower they might have to take her soon.... which i really dont want that to happen but right now there isnt much I can do but sit here and trust in god that she is going to be ok cause the doctors arent doin much... but yea now I am on bed rest until they fix it.... she is going to be tiny and most likely they will have to do a c-section on me ::which is not going to be the funnest thing in the world:: but anyways there was nothing much else that happened today but now my sis is going to have to stay home more often... great something else for her to fuss at me about... uuu she is kicking me... well since she is breeach she is hitting me... lol but anyways im outy for now and there is nothing much else going on so if u want to im me then that is cool... u know my sn... same at this name... duh.... toodles
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[18 Apr 2005|11:56pm] |
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I havent written in any of my journals in a really long time but that is just because i dont wanna... i dont know why i make other journals i just come back to this one lol.... i have hypothyroidism and now they have to fix it so that she wont get it but yea..... my dad is bein really cool about a lot of stuff and he is helpin me out... but unfortunatly he might have to take me to my laumause class (sp).... weird! ok i am really tired and its really late cause i got to get up in the morning goodnight to all and to all goodnight.... wat am i a poetic... toodles
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[26 Feb 2005|06:55pm] |
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ok there wasnt much to do today but hey its saturday.... never much to do that day unless u were out the night before.... then you can talk about with u did the other night.... or just stay out the whole weekend.... i dont know but anyways..... my moms friend came by and she brought her little boy... ( 5 1/2 months) sooooo cute!... my nails are starting to grow which i guess is a good thing but i cant keep them for long cause babies and nails dont go well together.... ah 3 1/2 more months and she will finally be here and not always kicking me....lol.... i got mr. valois for homebound (i think that is how you spell his name) and it sucks... well actually i dont know if it sucks but people keep on telling me that he is a really hard teacher.... my dog is acting like a cat and sitting at the top of the couch... he is soooo cute!!!!.... i dont get why people are still saying that i am not really pregnant.... i have taken plenty of tests people!!! bring one by and i will take one for you cause trust me i really dont have anything to hide anymore!.... lol i swear if some of these people saw my stomach they would still say that its like a body suit or something.... but hey people can believe whatever they i want i am just gonna laugh when they all get the slap in the face of the truth... someone likes to spread around lies just cause they cant face the truth....i have like a lot of baby clothes now... i still want her to be in some blue i just want to put like bows in her hair to show that she is a girl.... she will be adorable!!!..... hopefully.... lol.... nah just kidding.... she will be.... god willing..... :-) ok so there really isnt much else to say..... toodles...
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[25 Feb 2005|10:41pm] |
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ok so once again nothing happened today and i am still really bored.... i confuse people a lot and i dont even mean to.... watched van helsing with my family tonight which was ok but when i came back to the ocmputer no one left me a message and now i am really sad....lol jk ok there isnt much else to say....
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[24 Feb 2005|04:27pm] |
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there isnt much to do right now.... or ever.... cause really.... i mean what would there be to do when i cant go anywhere!!!.... i wish that she would kick me..... i was hurting this morning..... lol hope u cannot sneeck in there and look... trust me u wont want to... well is there anything else.... i had a really bad dream today while i was taking my nap but not going to say what it was cause it is too depressing.... ok time for me to go but i will probably be back.... lol... bye
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[21 Feb 2005|08:32pm] |
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helllllo there.... I am officially on homebound now due to stress at school and the fact that its gettin harder tp go there.... so now i shall be bored forever... but i can go back next year.... anyways there is nothing to do.... i am tired so im gonna go hit the bed and watch tv for the rest of the night...
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